A few days ago I was walking through a local store as I made my way to the one item I needed and came in for. Walking all the way back I went through a process of what I call “impulse buying decision making”. I would see an item I thought was cool, then I would say to myself that I want that (thereby what I think is cool, makes me cool), the next step would be to rationalize a reason for why the item is a necessity to my life. Not a want, but a necessity. Such as- The other one is getting old, I always disliked the color, I was PLANNING on buying one someday, why not now.
I can lay a little responsibility on advertising and the FINE job it does. But when I comes down to the core of it, it is my internal desire to want more. To believe that the stuff I buy will make me happy. Everyone wants to be happy as often and as long as possible. Wanting and desiring more in life isn’t itself a bad idea, but the greed that I feel is. The desire that buying the cool item will make myself cool, thus one-up against the other guy.
Wealth in money, possessions, popularity brings such short term satisfaction. It hides the real purpose of life. Yet, I still continue in hunger, wanting to quench it I look for more. When I was a teenager I took for myself an anthem, “I want it all” by Queen. My parents and I joked about it, but maybe it was more sad than funny now that I look back on it. Sad, because it was an aspiration that would never see it’s final end.
In the movie “Wall Street” Gordon Gecko said, “Greed is good. Greed is right. Greed works.” I may want to raise my fist in agreement with that, but deep down I know that greed hurts. It hurts me more than anyone else.
Quotes via Rumors of Another World and Notproud.com